nobody's home

no one to hold

I'm breaking as my tears run down my face

my hands shake

my walls shatter

my lungs cry

I'm torn as I'm unkown to the critcal battle

control my furture

control my preasant

what i say next

what i do next

control

but my sobs wont seem to stop

no matter how hard i beg

so unsure

so i cry out to god asking him to end it

but he just shakes his head instead

its all in my head

as i give off a fake smile

thats so similar to all the others

that ive ever add with im ok instead

dont fool you

you beg

but honestly your already plaied

as im not the hero ready to go save

or the vilan in the plot that took your hope away

im not the princess that asked you to save me from the tower

or the farmer who praied for rain

im a plastic barbie doll

who smiles for your enjoyment

to insure you that im ok

ready to play

ready to pretend

that this is what i truely am

as it is all a fraud

work hard for me

and i'll only hurt you

havent you figured it out

I cant make people stay

they all seem to run away

not good with words

but my lies seem to lay on my silver tongue

as i pull you into a false heaven

I've created with words of a sinner

who staies in her own hades

hold me

better yet

let me hold you

comfurt you

so i can smooth my self instead

care for you

the way i wish you cared for me in this sick state of bed rest

i'll cares your wet checks

telling you everything will fade on to a distant memory

 as i live in my past that given me my cuts and scares

i'll hold you tight

as you sob

and i break

let me give a love

 i wish someone would of shown me

so i can be loved instead

let me show you comfurt

as i lay selfishly in ur embrace

secretly stealing the warmth i crave

and when you walk away

with a false since of heaven

I'll give you my plasterd smile

with a simple few words

just to make sure your ok

wall i keep walking in a body I'd rather burn to ach

I give you a false since of a happy being

when i'm a broken angel instead