You touched me

and I felt my heart flutter

sputter and die

when you looked at her.

And I long to hate you

Hatred would be easier

maybe

if you stopped making me smile

what you did was brief but

infinitely disastrous

I would heal in time

if you failed to return

and unknowingly

reopen and salt my wounds

I'll never get better this way

So I had to leave

for other reasons as well but

mainly this

Do you know how hard it is for me to be around you?

Do you see the way I look at you?

Please, Please what?

Please prolong my bittersweet torture?

Please end it?

Your eyes and heart look elsewhere.

I long to snatch mine back - lock them away.

But they have forever been yours.