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My Best Friend

June 2, 2009
By fallinglikesnowx SILVER, Creston, Ohio
fallinglikesnowx SILVER, Creston, Ohio
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I promised you a story, and it's a story that I'll tell.
A sad, sorrow story, of my whole life gone to hell.
I've been thinking of memories in the back of my mind,
I've been dwelling on tears, but it's the smiles I find.
For nights, I've lied awake,
Taking on all of my mistakes.
Words I've regretted and good decisions, I've spared-
I know he knew all along that we really cared.
I remember your smile as you hugged me goodbye,
I remember your tears as you started to cry.
I promised a story and it's a story I'll tell.
A long, endless story and I'll tell it well.

I remember your son, in the back of Goodwill,
Waiting for me to come, waiting there until-
I arrived late but he never did go.
He licked my face and I walked very slow.
I smiled in delight at my silly new friend,
I never wanted those moments to end.
But sadly they did; yet I knew we'd meet again,
All those years I had lost, this one I did win.

A Sarah and a Billie-
They were always so silly.
They were my first taste of love,
Best friends- heaven sent, from above.

"Spell my name with an 'ie!'"
He told me one day,
And from then on, I always spelt it that way.
I shied away when we spoke on the phone,
I'd always rather be alone.
I stayed up late, and laughed at his jokes,
I was alive and it was no hoax.

Is it a sin to attend church when
You're lacking faith? Is it a sin?
I did it anyways.

I longed for Wednesdays and sometimes Sundays, too.
I longed to smile with my best friends, to get the day through.
I remember my mother and the hate that she brought.
She disliked my friends and she always fought.
I remember a birthday when I was filled with joy.
I remember the cake fight, and the smile on that boy.
He, Sarah, and I- we rolled down the hill.
We were alive and full of free will.

We were full of laughter, of kisses, of hugs.
Sometimes we'd even, pretend to be thugs.
We were full of confusion, just trying to get by,
We'd stay up too late, asking the world, "why?"
Things got rough, and there wasn't much we could do.
We all began to cry, and I missed those two.
"It would be nice if we could run away,"
Things would all be great some day.

I was wrong and usually out of my place,
And always he came, to join my silly race.
We were full of anger, from time to time,
We even committed some stupid crimes.

Sarah and I knew what it was to feel alone,
And we could hear the truth, just behind someone's tone.
They locked away our best of friend,
We never wanted our memories to end.

Things were getting rougher, and we didn't know what to do.
We all cried too much, and I always missed those two.

I met a boy that I took into my life,
And he helped me through all my difficulties and strife.
I stopped writing my best of friends,
It was my fault that our memories did end.
I cried some nights, and I looked for pity,
I tried to be smart, I tried to be witty.
All wasn't lost, or at least I wouldn't let it be,
I hadn't changed and I would make them really see.

I made some mistakes, repeatedly, on end.
I knew that they would be hard to fully mend.
My best friends came back; still that boy was my one,
I looked at him and I saw the sun.
Can you blame a little girl, for falling in love?
But what happened to her best friends- heaven sent, from above?

I lied out my teeth and I shouted in anger,
I knew our friendship was in grave danger.
But I didn't care, I was blinded by love.

I never got to set things right
Because my best friend ended his life that night.
I cry at night, before I fall asleep
About a friendship I longed to keep.
I shut my closet door before I close my eyes,
Afraid he's hanging there, in disguise.
I dream dreams of happy endings,
But when I open my eyes, I know things aren't mending.

Where are my best friends now, you may ask.
She is lonely, and he completed his task.
Things got the roughest they had ever been,
And we were all alone, without a single friend.

I remember the morning when I heard what was true,
I didn't want to believe it; I didn't know what to do.
I called my best friend Sarah, even though we'd grow away,
I cried until I could cry no more, "Things shouldn't be this way."
I focused on my pain for two whole weeks in school,
But I couldn't be alone, I wouldn't be a fool.

I remember the night when I sat in my kitchen floor,
I was angry with my boyfriend, for talking to a w****.
We were about to carve pumpkins, when I got the phone call,
I dropped on my knees, and all I could do was bawl.

I wore a rainbow and some pink tights,
If he could see me then, he'd want to take back our fights.
His face was pale, and his hands were cold.
With his poorly done make-up, he looked very old.
I kissed his forehead and I began to weep,
I cried about the friendship that I had failed to keep.
I hugged the friends, some I hardly knew,
But really, I didn't know what else to do.

Today we may smile but we're all really dead,
Billie's always there, in the back of our head.
I hope he forgives me for all the times I was wrong,
I hope he knows for his smile, I do long.

It will never be the same, Sarah, Billie, and I.
We'll always be wondering why our best friend chose to die.

I promised you a story and it's a story I did tell,
Hold this close when your heart hurts like hell.
Now it's time for goodbyes, and I hope all is well.
Hold this close when your heart hurts like hell.

The author's comments:
I wrote this for my best friend, Billie's mom, after he passed away on October 21, 2007.

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This article has 108 comments.

StepOneCheer said...
on Apr. 4 2011 at 8:31 pm
Good Poem, But its really long.. Still liked it though :-)

bree_bree GOLD said...
on Apr. 4 2011 at 5:35 pm
bree_bree GOLD, Auburn, Kentucky
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Favorite Quote:
mistakes are made to be learned from.

I love the way the poem probes the mind and makes you think about your own past, anyone can relate to the sorrow of loss and pain. Its an amazing peice of writing that brought tears to my eyes...whitch is saying alot.

Lahari GOLD said...
on Apr. 4 2011 at 4:40 pm
Lahari GOLD, Edison, New Jersey
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Favorite Quote:
\\\\\\\"Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift. That\\\\\\\'s why its called the present.\\\\\\\"
— Eleanor Roosevelt

\\\\\\\"When life gives you lemons, make grape juice. Then sit back and watch as the world wonders how you did it.\\\\\\\'

Wow! THis is amazing. It must have been so hard for you. Thanks for sharing :)

asiamarie. said...
on Apr. 4 2011 at 9:45 am
asiamarie., Johnson City, Tennessee
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great job! :)

on Mar. 13 2011 at 8:41 pm
dontforget GOLD, Cortland, New York
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Favorite Quote:
"The best things in life are left unseen. That's why we close our eyes when we cry, kiss, and dream."

I cried when I read this..thanks for sharing

on Feb. 19 2011 at 10:01 am
RemmiWrote SILVER, Goshen, New York
6 articles 9 photos 7 comments

Favorite Quote:
Be patient
Life is hard
Be couragous.<3Francis Hoffman RIP

wow you did a really good job! i love the poem!

on Feb. 6 2011 at 9:05 pm
Unknown_listener PLATINUM, Lehi, Utah
20 articles 0 photos 33 comments

Favorite Quote:
Love me and the world is mine <3
I don't heart you I circle you because circles last forever!
"I can get hearing aids, but you'll always be an idiot !" by: Grandma

This is amazing! I t shows good memories and brought back old ones too.  I had a friend who chose to die to.. its really hard to get over something like that.  I hope you are doing well..

mememelo said...
on Jan. 14 2011 at 12:20 pm
mememelo, Lamar, South Carolina
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Favorite Quote:

wow.. u certainly know how to bring back my memories but really good  job

on Jan. 12 2011 at 6:05 pm
Diamond-Ritiual, San Diego, California
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Favorite Quote:
"why do we KILL people who KILL people to show that KILLing people is wrong?"


cheer1018 said...
on Jan. 6 2011 at 12:18 pm
cheer1018, Spotsylvania, Virginia
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You are a great writer! This definitely made me think of all of my friends and how i would feel.  This really moved me and i am glad i read it! A lot of people write about hard times but the way you wrote was different-it actually meant something.

MRose911 GOLD said...
on Jan. 2 2011 at 2:02 am
MRose911 GOLD, Paradise, Utah
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Favorite Quote:
"No boy is worth crying over and the one who is won't make you cry." - Sarah Kane

This is amazing!!! Wow! One of the best pieces I have seen on here!

on Dec. 27 2010 at 6:44 pm
dolphin13 BRONZE, North St. Paul, Minnesota
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THAT WAS SO AMAZING! It was very well written and very sad. Keep writing!

on Dec. 15 2010 at 10:05 pm
JJSchneider GOLD, Camas, Washington
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Favorite Quote:
"I will work harder"-Boxer-Animal Farm

I disagree...If your going to write a poem you should finish it despite its length.

AndersN just take the time to read it and be done with it. Don't criticize when the author poors their heart into something you jerk.

Thank you fallinglikesnowx for writing this amazing masterpiece. I appreciate you sharing that with us. I lost 2 friends in 07' from suicide. Keep writing!

HeyImKaty GOLD said...
on Dec. 15 2010 at 9:44 am
HeyImKaty GOLD, Grand Junction, Colorado
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Favorite Quote:
"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: It goes on."

-Robert Frost

I loved that!! it was awesome.. it pulled at my heart strings. it made me and my mom cry! awesome work.. i could feel what u were saying.

on Nov. 23 2010 at 8:05 pm
isabel17 BRONZE, NEW TRIPOLI, Pennsylvania
4 articles 0 photos 38 comments

Favorite Quote:
beauty is only skin deep.

im confused? whos perspective os t hios from? did her and billie grow apart? was billies mom another one of her best friends? it was amazing though.

on Sep. 27 2010 at 10:37 am
OkuniTachibana GOLD, Warrensville Heights, Ohio
14 articles 0 photos 17 comments

Favorite Quote:
As the fallen soldier walks up to the gates of heaven to St.Peter he says "another soildier reporting sir ive served my time in hell"

Apsalutelly facinating

this story mkes me feel elateing

This poems brightend up my day

the best poem ever i must say



on Aug. 27 2010 at 9:00 pm
luckypachyderm SILVER, Medford, Oregon
5 articles 0 photos 27 comments

Favorite Quote:
Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius, and it is better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring- Marlyn Monroe

I love this poem so much. I read it all the time, i actually think i already commented on it. Lol. Would you mind taking a look at some of my work and telling me what you think? I would love to hear your opinion

on Aug. 2 2010 at 1:26 pm
StarGazer453 SILVER, Somewhere In A State, Massachusetts
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Favorite Quote:
A room without books is like a body without a soul. ~Cicero
My best friend is someone who gives me a book I have not yet read. ~President Abraham Lincoln
The one who smiles when things go wrong has thought if someone to blame it on. ~Robert Bloch

Wow, this is fantastic!  You really wrote from your heart.  This really touched me.

Manasi BRONZE said...
on Jun. 22 2010 at 12:08 pm
Manasi BRONZE, Portland, Oregon
3 articles 2 photos 2 comments
This is such an emotional poem! It makes me want to cry. Great Job! You're a wonderful writer!

love2run GOLD said...
on Jun. 13 2010 at 8:10 pm
love2run GOLD, Star Valley, Wyoming
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Favorite Quote:
"I failed my way to success." Thomas Edison
"What kind of crazy nut would spend two or three hours a day just running?" Pre
"A ship in harbor is safe, but that's not what ships are built for." John Shedd

You did a GREAT job writing this.