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Fitting In MAG

By MonicaMS BRONZE, Providence, Rhode Island
MonicaMS BRONZE, Providence, Rhode Island
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I wouldn't ask for a dressing room. My mom always asked for me.
The evening before I had repeatedly risen from my seat and piled on excess noodles suffocated in meat sauce. Then I licked my bowl with the buttered garlic bread, leaving no evidence of the four servings I had inhaled. In the morning I would be forced to lie on my bed and suck in my stomach just to button my jeans. I dreaded school shopping. The sale rack, with its slender size markers, knew my number continued to bloat.

I learned how to eat from my dad: fast and without thinking. In our house, the dinner table involved battle, with the children on defense. One false move and our dinner would be snatched off our plates without warning and gobbled up by our father faster than we could blink. We soon learned to keep a hand up while devouring our chicken strips, and if Mom decided to cook that night we needed to hurry and get seconds before it was gone.

Only one pair of jeans I tried on fit. I lied and told my mother I could button every pair but only needed the jeans that lay guarded in my hands. We walked to the checkout.

I kept my head down as we passed a group of girls. They whispered. I glanced up only long enough to know my place. Their eyes cut at me, hands cupped over their mouths in secrecy.


The recess bell rang and I followed two girls in my third grade class out past the monkey bars to the fenced grassy area. We all wore the same clothes that year: khaki pants and polo shirts. Everyone was the same, or that was the idea.

“I like your pants. Where did you get them?” Marcy asked Alicia. I nodded in agreement, thankful they had removed their cupped hands and I could hear the conversation.

“Really? I like yours better,” Alicia replied.

“We should trade. What size are you?” Marcy asked.

“I don't know …” Alicia said, finding the tag in the back of her pants. “Seven.”

“Me too,” Marcy said.


I hid in line as I held the jeans, tag folded in so nobody could see the number inscribed on it was 12. I am not a size seven.

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on Jun. 21 2010 at 3:34 pm
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I usally don't like the non-fiction but this was really good.

on Jun. 21 2010 at 3:02 pm
ValenciaJett BRONZE, Cape Elizabeth, Maine
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I loved that it turned out to be a third grade narrator. It was much more powerful to experience the stress and shame of a younger narrator that has the same problem as many teens. Great!

on Jun. 21 2010 at 10:00 am
collegegirladventures GOLD, Mequon, Wisconsin
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Good job on the story. Keep it up.

bubbles said...
on Jun. 19 2010 at 7:29 pm
that was really good

on Jun. 10 2010 at 8:05 pm
BlackKittie SILVER, Milwaukee, Wisconsin
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i like gets to the have a talent

mikky said...
on Jun. 4 2010 at 7:14 pm

the cool kid said...
on Jun. 1 2010 at 11:17 am
i dont now how you can relate to that no efients by the way

on May. 31 2010 at 7:10 pm
alanacarlene DIAMOND, Mexia, Texas
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Wow. This is really good I like it. It gave me goose bumps. I like it because lots of people can relate and you typed how a lot of people feel. Really wonderful job. Thank you for writing this!

on May. 30 2010 at 9:27 am
LaughingGirl GOLD, Ocala, Florida
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This is really good. You need to write more please!

on May. 30 2010 at 8:06 am
justthtblondie BRONZE, Beach Lake, Pennsylvania
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Wow, that's the stupidest thing i've ever heard. If she doesnt want to be seen tlking to you shes not worth your time.

on May. 27 2010 at 11:45 pm
maddielissa BRONZE, Wildwood, Missouri
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on May. 26 2010 at 1:59 pm
Gabriellan BRONZE, Antioch, Tennessee
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I love this title and the story. I'm a size three and I still feel inferior to people, so I can relate to this.

on May. 25 2010 at 9:57 pm
HeyAmanda SILVER, Rancho Cucamonga, California
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i always feel embarrassed when i have something bad on on spilled on my self and my friend  is like here borrow my extras they should fit ,they fit big on me..... but i have to love myslf or succumb the peer pressure of drugs and acohal.

AmyJo13 said...
on May. 24 2010 at 8:35 am
I love this.I wish i could read more.Im 13 and wear a size 12.

sallyrockz said...
on May. 23 2010 at 7:51 pm
 lotz of people deal with problemz with there younger siblings and i also hate it

on May. 20 2010 at 10:59 am
wow im soo like you. but i cant fit in a 7, if you were 16 and was 15 id shop in kids cause im sooo small! but i rock the look.:):):)

on May. 15 2010 at 7:33 pm
KatherineRose SILVER, Philadelphia, Other
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I'm a size 16. And I can't really believe I'm admitting it. But the thing is, I love who I am, on the inside. And I try to let that shine through out the outside. I hope you can too. I don't eat because there's a hole in me or anything, I eat because I like food. I find no problem with that. Girls, like me, like us, are never expected to be that popular. In a way, I almost defy that stereotype. I run for student offices, play on school sports teams, participate in social activites and I feel better after doing that because right now, I am fairly popular without being a total ....female dog....I hope you and everyone else is able to feel great about yourselves someday soon...anyone brave enough to come online here and post their stories and experiences deserves it..

mikky said...
on May. 8 2010 at 8:38 pm
same here. i can totally relate to this...ppl make fun of me bc im too skinny. barely anything on the jeans rack fits me. lol but keep wrigting girl u can add a lot more to this story. i love it too :)

on May. 8 2010 at 3:45 pm
EmilyMichelle PLATINUM, Manassas, Virginia
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"Our truest responsibility to the irrationality of the world is to paint or sing or write, for only in such response do we find the truth."
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I use just the right amount of words to get your point across and they are the right words too. I can relate to this as well, except I wear small sizes. My problem is that I'm tall and also thin so I can hardly ever find something to fit. I'm starting to be happier with who I am, and I hope you will be too. It's great to be yourself, though everyone wants to fit in.

poppy_lin GOLD said...
on May. 8 2010 at 8:47 am
poppy_lin GOLD, Latrobe, Pennsylvania
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amazing story. i am the exact opposite! I am too skinny, so i can relate to this experience. KEEP ON WRITING! :)