Why does every thought revolve around him?
'We need snack at school. Im hungry! I wonder if Andrew* thinks the same thing?' or 'Ugh! This homework is so hard! Maybe Andrew could tutor me!' and 'Doo,doo,doo. Better check my profile for anything new. Andrew could have commented.'
That's how it goes. Right now I'm feeling that you could ask me anything, and I could relate it to him. Try it.
Why though? Why should he be the one? Whats so special about him? As Mom always says, 'You shouldn't ask questions that don't have answers.' And that's right. I dont know why I love him. I just do.
Its way to complicated for some one of my age (13, and rockin it! Andrew's still 12 though.) All I want to do is scream out, "ANDREW! ANDREW! I LOVE YOU, CAN'T YOU SEE?"
I've tried everything to fix this. Getting over him (And let me just note that this had in fact, not worked.), asking him out (I wouldn't really count that though because I didn't ask him, thanks to my whimpy guts!), and taking my thoughts and placing them somewhere else. Like T.V., books, and music.
Nothing worked. Just like when I tried to 'accidentally' run into him, but he walks way too fast.
You see what I mean?!
MAybe I should just go on like this. Just keep loving him forever on. Looking in his direction to make sure hes still there and I wasn't just dreaming him. Counting how many footsteps he takes when he disappears into the crowd in the hall. Waking up with the thought that this could be the day where I just can't take the pain of loving him anymore and doing something about it. But then all that washes away by his beauty.
I think I will stay like this, watching from a distance.I could swear he gets more beautiful everyday. But that's just me.
*= awayObvious name change