Without knowing I gave you my heart.
Without knowing I trusted you with my heart.
It wasn’t perfect.
Damaged by the years.
By depression and labels.
By “friends" and bullies.
It was damaged but I gave it to you.
For you I stopped cutting.
For you I wanted to get better.
I did and turned my life around.
You helped me without even knowing.
I fell for you without even knowing.
I didn’t know you or your name.
I fell for your spirit and love for God.
As time passed I fell for your big heart.
I fell for your smile.
I fell for you laugh.
I advoided you.
I was so scared.
I never wanted to fall.
I pushed you to the back of my mind.
I forced myself to like other guys.
I finally learned your name.
I learned your name and never forgot it.
I finally spoke to you.
I fell for your voice.
I got the courage to hug you.
I fell for your hugs.
I finally admited to myself that I had a huge crush on you.
I realized how much you did for me just by living.
Before I knew it I hadn’t cut for a year.
Before I knew it we got closer.
Before I knew it you were 18.
And before I knew it you shattered my heart.
I couldn’t protect it or myself.
You found someone gorgeous who makes you happy.
In less than 2 minutes I felt horrible about myself.
My youth paster made me feel like every girl who had a crush on you.
In less than 2 minutes I realized I wasted 5 years of my life that I will never get back.
In less than 2 minutes I felt worthlesd.
I realized I was nothing to you.
I realized that for me hope always leads to heartbreak.
I no longer know what to do.
I refuse to cry.
I refuse to ever fall again.
I fell head first and no one caught me.
I fell head first knowing you were out of my league.
I jumped thinking that you would be the one to look past my flaws.
I jumped thinking you could look past my past.
I jumped thinking that somehow you would be the one to love me for me.
This is the story of how my heart got shattered.
How no one knew what he ment to me.
I gave away my damaged heart.
It’s shattered now.
But somehow it still belongs to you.
One day I will get it back.
But when that day comes a piece will still be yours.