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Mirrors

September 29, 2014
By teacuppoetry GOLD, Lancashire, Other
teacuppoetry GOLD, Lancashire, Other
15 articles 1 photo 23 comments

Favorite Quote:
The world is full of obvious things which nobody by any chance ever observes- Sherlock Holmes


It’s I that’s broken
Not the mirror
If it was
I wouldn’t hate myself so
But when I sit and delve in to the tunnels of my soul
I find that piece of rubbish that is my self esteem
All it needs is a polish to make it gleam
No.
It needs more than that,
It needs
Something or someone
To morph it back
To it’s original monotonous shape
Climbing out of the tunnels
My self esteem dissolves yet again
Too many mirrors
Too many cracks
I can see everything
Everything that is wrong with the casing
My heart
My heart is as full as I am after a fillet steak
My self esteem continues to shatter
And crack until the end of the time
And I am afraid
Afraid that it will never be able to reshape itself
It will be forever
Broken
How broken is broken?
I’m all smiles but inside
Inside I am pale faced and tired
Tired of feeling unhappy
Unhappiness is an enemy, one that you never want to face
Want to know why?
You should never face unhappiness because when you do, you become unhappiness and nothing else
This is the first time words don’t hurt
Words don’t hurt because you already hate yourself enough that any words with negative connotations pass you by
Or are merely accepted in the trainwreck that is your mind
Your mind has so many openings yet so many closed doors
What’s behind those doors
Is it the key to stitching your self esteem?
That’s the problem
It’s too deep
No easy access to the thing that gets you through the day
How can you step out in to the daylight if you’re surrounded by darkness?
Mirrors are everywhere, my reflection is everywhere, I need to get that lipstick off of my teeth but I can’t bare to look
I’m as scared as a child watching their first horror film from behind a pillow
Scared of what I will see
Me
The putred me


The author's comments:

This piece is about how I currently feel about the way I look, the anger, the sadness. I hate myself. People tell me I'm beautiful and pretty and all nice things but I'm just a wall and their words are bits of paper.


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on Nov. 13 2014 at 6:42 pm
teacuppoetry GOLD, Lancashire, Other
15 articles 1 photo 23 comments

Favorite Quote:
The world is full of obvious things which nobody by any chance ever observes- Sherlock Holmes

Aww thank you so much :)

on Nov. 13 2014 at 5:32 pm
infinity13524 BRONZE, West St. Paul, Minnesota
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Favorite Quote:
Life is about the journey, not the destination.

This is a gourgeous piece. Every line was strong, but  still beautiful and smooth. I've read this like 4 times now and I like it more every time! 

on Nov. 10 2014 at 6:47 pm
teacuppoetry GOLD, Lancashire, Other
15 articles 1 photo 23 comments

Favorite Quote:
The world is full of obvious things which nobody by any chance ever observes- Sherlock Holmes

Thank you very much for your kind words! I have another poem that is being processed for publishing on here, it's called Paper Girl :) 

on Nov. 10 2014 at 6:45 pm
Olivia-Atlet ELITE, Dardenne Prairie, Missouri
325 articles 10 photos 1165 comments

Favorite Quote:
"To these the past hath its phantoms,
More real than solid earth;
And to these death does not mean decay,
But only another birth"
- Isabella Banks

This is really beautiful, and wonderfully deep. I feel like I can connect to this extremely well, and it makes me feel better to know that I'm not alone :) This is simply wondrous, and I hope more people will read and comment on it! 5 stars for the eloquent language and meaning, another 10000000 for how outstanding it was! XD